this morning I decided to die

This evening, I will die. Ive been thinking about this for a long time, and now I finally have the needed resolve. Theres nothing here that can make me reconsider. I have no friends. Nobody loves me, and certain relatives even hate me. When Im gone, theyll probably breathe a sigh of relief. Theres still one last day left to live, though. I wonder, what it would be like? As disappointing and cumbersome as the rest? Or will I find something worth living for? To be honest, I dont really believe in ...