Urge to Molest "if"

What "if" I hadnt molested her that on that bus---? One year ago. While on the bus during a business trip, I meet a quiet girl with a well-developed body, that despite the perfect situation, I decided not to molest. However, from that day forth I was plagued with powerful urges to molest. I struggled every day to hold-back these urges, but one day on the way home- by coincidence, I saw that quiet girl and her friends again. Flashbacks of how I felt on that day return... I was suddenly controlled by my bodys instinct, and couldnt take my eyes off of the girls. And then--- --- --- ---the repress...